Little Peach by Peggy Kern

What do you do when you’re in trouble?

A deeply affecting story about a fourteen-year-old girl who gets ensnared in a sex trafficking ring. The characters never became ‘real’ to me and I was always aware that I was in the middle of a book, but it brings important awareness of a difficult subject to the young adult audience. It is not an easy subject, but I’m glad I listened to it.

“Ain’t you even going to ask where I’m going?”
“Can’t nothing be worse than here.”

When fourteen-year-old Michelle’s drug-addicted mother kicks her out of their house in Philadelphia, she boards a train to New York City to find a school friend that moved there. She is lost and overwhelmed in the large city, but she runs into a kind stranger named Devon offers to help. He promises her comfort and safety for a few nights. She enjoys the feeling of safety and belonging at Devon’s apartment, but that doesn’t last for long. Devon invites some friends over and she is drugged and raped. She only has vague memories of that night, but the next morning they repeatedly tell her how much she enjoyed it and they use the situation as a way to initiate her into their business.

The story is short and powerful; the audiobook is four hours and the book is 208 pages. I listened to it in one sitting, which I think is the best way to experience the story. The audiobook narrator has a youthful voice which emphasizes Michelle’s innocence. The story begins with Michelle hospitalized with severe injuries. We then go back in time as Michelle tells us her story, before circling back to the hospital in the end. Michelle begins her story in childhood. Her life in her loving grandfather’s care is a sharp and heartbreaking contrast to her life after his death. The things that happen to Michelle are hard to stomach. Peggy Kern does not shy away from what prostitution entails, but it never feels voyeuristic.

“Michelle, is your mother dead?”
I want to say yes. I want it to be true. I want to say she’s the one who died on the couch last year. Got wheeled out on a stretcher and never came back. I want it to be her. But the wrong people die. the dead people are the good ones, the bad ones get to walk around like nothing. Like they got a right to keep breathing while the ones you need just leave their skin, waste away until there ain’t nothing left but a stupid dirty t-shirt and what you can barely remember.

Michelle’s story demonstrates how easy it is for someone to get trapped in this seedy underworld. Michelle is naive and trusting. She was deliberately targeted and lured into Devon’s business. Devon makes quite the sales pitch to Michelle. I even started to doubt myself and I knew what was the story was about! Even with the sense of dread building in the back of my mind, I thought, “Hmm, well maybe the bad guy comes later.” He showers her with empty promises of a better life, while never revealing what will be required of her. Michelle quickly becomes dependent on her captor. She didn’t see it as captivity, because it wasn’t a kidnapping in the traditional sense. Devon gives her the illusion of freedom and choice.

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When Michelle expresses doubts, Devon repeatedly reminds her that her that there is no life for her outside of his world. The only other choice is a group home, facilities that have a reputation for being rife with abuse. The situation with Devon is abusive, but Michelle is unable to see that and the euphemisms cloud her vision even more (medicine=drugs, daddy=pimp). The illusion is eventually broken, but by then she is already in deep and it is not as easy as getting up and walking away. Not only is she under constant supervision and completely dependent on Devon, but there are repercussions for leaving the “family.”

“You only missing if somebody looking for you.”

The economical writing style and perspective choice did make it difficult for me to fully connect with the characters. First person present tense is so tricky for me; sometimes it doesn’t bother me, but other times it is all I notice. It feels more immersive to many, but I find it distancing. It feels so restrictive, like I can’t get a complete picture. When the author uses literary devices (repetition in this case), it jolts me out of the book’s world even more. Even so, the fictional story told in this book is a grim reality for many young women. Since listening to this book, I’ve read numerous articles of women whose stories are so similar to Michelle’s. Her story ends up on a hopeful note, but so many women are manipulated into returning to the business.

One reason for the proliferation of sex trafficking is because in many parts of the world there is little to no perceived stigma to purchasing sexual favors for money, and prostitution is viewed as a victimless crime. Because women are culturally and socially devalued in so many societies, there is little conflict with the purchasing of women and girls for sexual services. Further, few realize the explicit connection between the commercial sex trade, and the trafficking of women and girls and the illegal slave trade. In western society in particular, there is a commonly held perception that women choose to enter into the commercial sex trade. However, for the majority of women in the sex trade, and specifically in the case of trafficked women and girls who are coerced or forced into servitude, this is simply not the case. Source: soroptimist.org (the bolding is my own)

This book gave me a new perspective on an issue that is difficult to think about. Little Peach demonstrates how easy it can be for young women to be lured into the sex trafficking industry and how difficult it can be for them to escape. The sex traffickers deliberately pick young women who don’t have strong family ties and will be most susceptible to their manipulations. Some of the most affecting scenes were the ones where we are reminded how few authentic bonds these women had in the outside world: the missing poster for the blonde girl and [spoiler] when Michelle is rebuffed after working up the courage to call an old family friend for help.[/spoiler] When the men are done using them, the women, many of whom are by then struggling with drug addiction and mental illness, are tossed back on the street with no support. This book is by no means an easy read, but I am glad I listened to it.

Unlike a bag of heroin, a girl can be sold again and again.

*Little Peach is currently available on Hoopla, which is great service! If your library subscribes to it, it is a great way to check out audiobooks without the wait list.)

On the Schedule: April 2016

Here are a few of the books I have on the schedule for the next few weeks!

April 2016 Books

  1. In the Country We Love by Diane Guerrero (Henry Holt & Co/May 3, 2016)Diane Guerrero, the television actress from the megahit Orange is the New Black and Jane the Virgin, was just fourteen years old on the day her parents were detained and deported while she was at school. Born in the U.S., Guerrero was able to remain in the country and continue her education, depending on the kindness of family friends who took her in and helped her build a life and a successful acting career for herself, without the support system of her family. Received via LibraryThing’s Early Reviewer Program.
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  2. Three Martini Lunch by Suzanne Rindell (G.P. Putnam’s Sons/April 5, 2016)
    In 1958, Greenwich Village buzzes with beatniks, jazz clubs, and new ideas—the ideal spot for three ambitious young people to meet. Cliff Nelson, the son of a successful book editor, is convinced he’s the next Kerouac, if only his father would notice. Eden Katz dreams of being an editor but is shocked when she encounters roadblocks to that ambition. And Miles Tillman, a talented black writer from Harlem, seeks to learn the truth about his father’s past, finding love in the process. Though different from one another, all three share a common goal: to succeed in the competitive and uncompromising world of book publishing. As they reach for what they want, they come to understand what they must sacrifice, conceal, and betray to achieve their goals, learning they must live with the consequences of their choices. In Three-Martini Lunch, Suzanne Rindell has written both a page-turning morality tale and a captivating look at a stylish, demanding era—and a world steeped in tradition that’s poised for great upheaval. Received via the Goodreads First Reads Program.
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  3. The Quality of Silence by Rosamund Lupton (Crown Publishing/February 16, 2016)
    Thrillingly suspenseful and atmospheric, The Quality of Silence is the story of Yasmin, a beautiful astrophysicist, and her precocious deaf daughter, Ruby, who arrive in a remote part of Alaska to be told that Ruby’s father, Matt, has been the victim of a catastrophic accident. Unable to accept his death as truth, Yasmin and Ruby set out into the hostile winter of the Alaskan tundra in search of answers. But as a storm closes in, Yasmin realizes that a very human danger may be keeping pace with them. And with no one else on the road to help, they must keep moving, alone and terrified, through an endless Alaskan night. Received via LibraryThing’s Early Reviewers Program.
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    In this improbably joyous novel about two recovering concentration camp survivors, love is the best medicine. Received via Powell’s Indiespensable Box.
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  5. Tuesday Nights in 1980 by Molly Prentiss (Gallery/ScoutPress/April 5, 2016)
    An intoxicating and transcendent debut novel that follows a critic, an artist, and a desirous, determined young woman as they find their way—and ultimately collide—amid the ever-evolving New York City art scene of the 1980’s. Received via Powell’s Indiespensable Box.
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  6. The Walls Around Us by Nova Ren Suma (Algonquin Young Readers/Paperback Release on March 22, 2016)
    The Walls Around Us is a ghostly story of suspense told in two voices–one still living and one dead. On the outside, there’s Violet, an eighteen-year-old ballerina days away from the life of her dreams when something threatens to expose the shocking truth of her achievement. On the inside, within the walls of a girls’ juvenile detention center, there’s Amber, locked up for so long she can’t imagine freedom. Tying these two worlds together is Orianna, who holds the key to unlocking all the girls’ darkest mysteries: What really happened on the night Orianna stepped between Violet and her tormentors? What really happened on two strange nights at Aurora Hills? Will Amber and Violet and Orianna ever get the justice they deserve–in this life or in another one? Received via the Goodreads First Reads Program.

I’m really excited about all of these! Which one would you read first?

These Heroic, Happy Dead by Luke Mogelson

A short book of ten post-9/11 short stories, each of which is an empathetic portrait of a complex, flawed individual. Luke Mogelson writes from experience. He served as a medic in the 69th Infantry, New York Army National Guard from 2007 to 2010 and then spent the next three years living in Afghanistan as a journalist. He tells each character’s story journalistically, with no judgment. The stories come from a range of experiences: combat soldiers at home and abroad, an Afghan-American interpreter, a medic in the New York National Guard, a private contractor, a foreign correspondent, and family members of veterans. Six of the four stories are set in the USA, after deployments. The stories serve as a counterpoint to the romanticization of war and as a reality check about the lives of many soldiers after the fanfare of returning home.

…why talk of beauty what could be more beaut-
iful than these heroic happy dead
who rushed like loons to the roaring slaughter
they did not stop to think they died instead…
— e.e. cummings, “next to of course god america i”

Many of the stories are loosely threaded together, sharing common characters. Each story stands on its own, but it is a richer work if you can catch the links. We are left with an ominous open-ending in A Beautiful Country, but there is a quick update on Healy’s fate in Total Solar. Ben McPherson and Lee Boyle from To the Lake both get a little bit of a back story in Kids and New Guidance, respectively. A soldier briefly mentioned in New Guidance as a man who joined the army for dental work reappears as the main character in Human Cry. I read one story every day or two over a couple weeks, but to catch all the connections I would recommend reading it in one or two sittings. I missed at least one character update when I did not catch that the fate of Jim (the father) from Sea Bass is mentioned in Peacetime. The book is 192 pages so a quick read is definitely doable. (ALSO: There is a mosque incident mentioned in both To the Lake and The Port is Near, but I couldn’t see any clues that it was McPherson in both stories or remember a story that referenced this incident. It may be just a coincidence, but let me know if you know the connection!)

The source of my naked-in-a-dream embarrassment was never the nakedness. It was the fact that I alone had managed to get myself into such a situation, while everyone else on the submarine or whatever had managed to avoid it. What did it say about me, the sort of person I was? (Total Solar)

My favorite story was Kids. The stories of an Afghan boy bringing undetonated explosives to the base for unknown, possibly friendly, reasons and a soldier having trouble fitting into the unit intersect in a dramatic way. Mogelson really made me care for the characters through their interactions. The featured characters grappled with trying to find answers when there aren’t any and trying to make sense of senseless things. I also enjoyed:
Total Solar – A journalist is apathetically interviewing a subject, when he suddenly gets caught up in the hazy fog of war.
Sea Bass – An 11-year-old boy and his veteran father trying to relate to each other during summer visitation.
Visitors – A mother visiting her son at the prison he was sentenced to after committing a violent crime shortly after returning home from combat duty.
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(As the lieutenant is telling a depressed soldier the more “comforting” version of events) Just as I’d told Feldman one story, another was telling itself. I mean the story in which the kid was exactly who we’d wanted him to be; the story in which he helped us…This story was as plausible as mine, mine as plausible as this one, and who could say how many other variations there might be, or which of them, precisely, Feldman was contemplating then.
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(Kids, the whole passage is my favorite in the book, but it is a little too long to reproduce here)

This book is more accessible than Redeployment, because I did not need to keep referring to a glossary of acronyms to read it! I did have difficulty maintaining interest in some of the stories because the writing was so journalistic and the stories were so short (about twenty pages each). As a whole, these short stories are snapshots of life and not beginning-middle-end stories. I did have to laugh about my “no-ending” complaint when I got to this passage in Kids:

“That’s the end of the story?” I said.
He shrugged. “I got out after that tour and started working for Raytheon.”
“Jesus, Murray,” I said. “You’re telling me you don’t know what happened? You don’t know if Walsh ever figured out what the kid said?”
Murray looked at me and grinned. What he was saying without saying was: “You dumb son of a bitch, of course he never figured it out.”

This book is mostly about men who were broken by the war and men who were broken before it even began. One of the main themes of These Heroic, Happy Dead is isolation. The men in this book have become part of a closed network and have trouble transitioning back into civilian life or relating to their loved ones. Many of them returned to the military after a disappointing stint back home. It’s depressing in an “it is what it is” type way. I was struck by the immediacy of this work in the acknowledgments, where Mogelson thanked those “who still live in a country that is too perilous for me to be able to name them here.”; a salient reminder that while the war has faded from the news, it is not over. If you liked Redeployment, you might like this one. If you were turned off by Redeployment because of the sexual content or acronyms but like the general idea of it, you might want to give this book a try instead.

Ours was a war that offered few opportunities, aside from getting killed or wounded, to distinguish yourself. There were no hills to charge, peninsulas to hold, bridges to seize. There was only the patrol: a year’s worth of mine-littered walks ending where they started.(Kids)

*I received this Advanced Reader’s Edition through LibraryThing’s Early Reviewer program. These Heroic, Happy Dead will be released in April 2016.

The Passenger by Lisa Lutz

I chose to run because I figured that would give me the best chance at something like living. And that’s exactly what it was. Something like living.

Preposterous fun! Travel along with a woman who assumes different identities, while running from multiple pasts. (The main character takes on many names in this book, so I am going to refer to the main character as Tanya.)

When you take another person’s life, it changes you. It doesn’t just change how you look at the world or how you see yourself. It alters you to your core, your DNA. All of the things I had once believed about myself, about my inherent decency—I didn’t have the same foothold on them as I once had.

Tanya Dubois is standing over her dead husband at the bottom of the stairs. She claims she had nothing to do with it, but she is not terribly torn up about this turn of events. She doesn’t want to the police snooping around, so she decides to run. She calls an old acquaintance for help in obtaining a new identity. It quickly becomes apparent this is not the first time she has used his services. What is Tanya running from?

I hadn’t let myself linger much in the past. The best part of running full speed is not having time to look back.

The first half was great. Tanya is world-weary and has a dry sense of humor. She was a fun character to travel the USA with and I liked following along as she chose identities and disguised herself. I enjoyed the first extended stop in Austin, TX, because there was a ton of action and it is always fun to spot nearby locations in books. My favorite place was Recluse, Wyoming, because a town where everyone feels trapped was an interesting compare & contrast to Tanya’s situation. I actually liked the “romantic” interest that was introduced and the casual, adversarial nature of their relationship. The best part was her job! The idea of an imposter teacher covertly imparting survival lessons to the town’s children is endlessly amusing to me! [spoiler]“I want you to write one page on what you want to be when you grow up, and then one page on what you want to be if that first thing doesn’t work out, because sometimes things don’t work out the way we’d like them to. Then another page on what you’d do if the first two things you’d like to be don’t work out. Then two pages on the one thing you definitely don’t want to be no matter what. It’s really important not to let the bottom drop out of your life.” I loved little Andrew and I hope he gets to use the road maps![/spoiler] During our travels, we also get to read Tanya’s email communications with an old boyfriend. These emails help shed a little light on her first life.
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If you murder someone once, even with a tenuous argument for self-defense, you can blame it on chance, being at the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong name. But the next time you kill someone, you have to start asking the hard questions. Is it really self-defense or a lifestyle choice? When you kill another human being in cold blood, you kill part of yourself.

I lost my reading momentum in the second half. After Recluse, Tanya doesn’t set foot in any location or identity for very long. There are a series of isolated incidents that are hurdles in her path, but they never amount to anything except reminding Tanya of her humanity in a couple of cases. The publisher summary led me to believe Tanya was more experienced at deception than she actually was. The trip gets really disorganized and she makes some silly decisions. [spoiler]Going back through Chicago was a TERRIBLE idea, strict policy or not![/spoiler] I never felt the weight of her actions bearing down on her, nor did I feel like anyone who was chasing her was close to catching up. Even though I really enjoyed Blue’s character, her actions ended up being the most ridiculous part of the book [spoiler](the quick trust, journalism, the final accident)[/spoiler]. The ending was anticlimactic for both me and Tanya. [spoiler]”I have to admit, it was a bit of a letdown. Running so hard for so long only to learn I was free. It was like gearing up for a championship fight only to have your opponent take a fall. I still wanted to fight. I had lived for so long with my options narrowed into a foxhole, I wasn’t sure how I would proceed now that the real world was open to me.”[/spoiler]

“There’s nothing else to you, besides youth. You’re just a shell. You seem empty inside, as if your personality has been hijacked.”

The main character is not in the driver’s seat of her own life and she has almost completely disappeared into the cast of characters she has been forced to become to survive. She is an empty vessel who has to remain vigilant and ready to react at any moment. She is loyal to a fault. While the main character’s situation leads to her not feeling like a complete person, I really liked her toughness and her folksy humor! I had a lot of fun reading The Passenger, but the second half didn’t consistently maintain the tension created in the first half. Another book about a woman who assumes multiple identities is The Diver’s Clothes Lie Empty, though she does it in a more unintentional way.

“I do love symmetry, don’t you?” “I prefer justice,” I said. “Sometimes you get both.”

The Longest Night by Andria Williams

[Paul] It was a moment that had been in the making for a long time; it shouldn’t have been any more horrifying than the ones that had come before. The worst step had already been taken long ago.

Engrossing domestic drama set in the time surrounding the USA’s only fatal nuclear accident. It was more “soapy” than I was expecting, but the characters were well-written and I learned a lot about an event that has largely been forgotten.

[Paul] In his locker he taped a Robert E. Lee quote: “I do not trust a man to control others who cannot control himself.” Amazingly, as the years went by, he won the job, the girl, and an amount of respect that seemed neither stingy nor extravagant: It seemed just right. But like many hard-forced things his veneer was delicate, and he found that he became easily panicked. He’d fought so hard for what he had that he could imagine countless ways it might be taken away.

This book is primarily a domestic drama, bookended by chapters about the events leading up to and following the accident. It was like Army Wives, if it were set in the 1960s. The broken nuclear reactor takes a backseat to the trials of military marriage in the middle of the book.

[Paul] Paul felt a sudden stab of pity for them all. They could die for this nothingness, this shit hole. It was their life, this lifting and sweating and shuffling and dodging, this penning of warnings that no one would read, this making of endless excuses. It was a service no one would love them for, and they were veterans of nothing more than their own blank, tenuous days.

The CR-1 accident in the book is based on the SL-1 accident, the only fatal nuclear power accident in the USA. There was some sensationalism surrounding the original event, but the author handles it respectfully. At the end of this review are some resources I found about the actual accident. After watching some of the old videos, I have to say that the author did an amazing job setting the scene and describing the reactor! Everything looked exactly how I imagined it.

[Nat] “I feel like a piece in a china cabinet, you know? Like I just sit still, waiting for something. Like I haven’t taken a deep breath in years.”

I did love the characters and I got really involved in their stories. Even the small children are realistic! The chapters alternate between three characters: Nat, Paul, and Jeannie. The chapters are long, so you have time to get settled into each character. Nat is a California girl at heart. When she married Paul Collier, she left her beloved San Diego and ocean for a transient military life. The book opens as they and their two toddlers are moving to Idaho Falls, a town whose main claims to fame are a waterfall and a Mormon temple. A brand new J.C. Penney is an exciting event in this town. Nat feels cooped up in the house and is frustrated with her lack of freedom and her husband’s lack of communication. Her husband Paul is a reserved, by-the-books type guy. He has a strong sense of morality and is frustrated by people who don’t live by the same code. Paul feels somewhat guilty about bringing his family to such an isolated area, but his mind is mostly occupied with work issues. Paul works at the CR-1 Reactor, a place where a “can-do attitude” is a substitute for safety. There is a serious problem with the reactor, but management doesn’t want to draw attention to it. On his first day at work, Master Sergeant Mitch Richards urges him to defy his army training and to verbally tell him of reactor irregularities rather than documenting them in the logs. Jeannie is Mitch Richard’s wife and a busybody. She is frustrated with her husband’s drinking and womanizing. Her main goal is to get Mitch to retirement, which is only three years away, so their family can finally have some stability. It is all on her shoulders because he is complacent and not concerned about it one bit! There is also Esrom, a friendly local cowboy, who befriends Nat at her loneliest point.

[Jeannie] Their army life felt like an endless parade in which Mitch was a large, slow-moving float and Jeannie every other performer, running alongside, cheering, shooting off confetti, waving banners and flags, calling attention to his every move as if it were fantastic and exciting and rare.

Jeannie’s chapters were the most comedic. In her opening scene, she is hosting a dinner party and trying to maintain composure as people keep going off the expected script. The way she covertly shames Nat for her dinner contribution was hilariously cruel! “Should we keep passing around those potatoes?” Jeannie managed. “And we have this meatloaf that Nat so kindly brought, but no one’s even taken a slice of it yet.” She held it aloft; one whole olive had slid greasily to the side of the loaf, where it jutted like a wayward nipple.”

The portrayal of the ups-and-downs of Nat and Paul’s marriage was honest. This is a marriage between a free-spirited woman and a straight-laced (though slightly more progressive than most) military man in a very conservative era, so the issues they dealt with felt very real. I could understand both Paul’s struggles to be a good person and fears of losing everything and Natalie’s desperation for freedom and independence. I did get frustrated with Natalie’s willful ignorance regarding her friendship with Esrom! She had romanticized it so much, that she couldn’t even see straight anymore. She was the character that was least reflective of her mistakes because if she thought about it, she would have to make some unwanted changes. [spoiler]I feel 90% sure that Esrom would have puppy-dogged after her forever, so the permanent distance was for the best for both of them![/spoiler]

[Nat] She was both flattered and embarrassed when he called her his angel. She knew she was supposed to be his angel, because men were inherently unstable and needed a woman’s love the way a pilot needed a compass. Men were the providers and the doers and the protectors of everything—finances, morals, property—and yet there was something off about them, everybody knew it, something that needed to be sheltered from certain realities, such as childbirth or the sight of a woman without support garments. It had always puzzled Nat, this way she was supposed to treat men, because it didn’t seem to fit Paul and it felt foreign to her. And yet they were becoming it, as if it were inevitable. Distance was making them proper, and making her his angel.

I didn’t like the missing girl→creepy youth pastor→Natalie’s teenage years story train. The missing girl part threw me off the most. It kept being mentioned, but it wasn’t really going anywhere. Then it turned out to be a roundabout way to introduce Natalie’s teenage years. I also thought there were a few incidents at the end [spoiler](Paul’s breakout and the subsequent car accident)[/spoiler] that went too much into crazy high-jinks territory for me, in a story that already has built-in drama. But as far as crazy high-jinks go, it wasn’t too crazy. These are minor things in an overall engrossing story.

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I’d recommend this book to anyone who would like to read a solid story about the ups-and-downs of marriage, but also likes interesting historical settings. Last year I read A Place We Knew Well, where a family drama and a Cold War event reach a breaking point at the same time. I wasn’t as attached to the characters in that book, but it might be worth a read if you are interested in the time period.

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Here are the resources about the actual incident I used to verify my visualizations.
1961 Nuclear Reactor Meltdown : The SL-1 Accident – United States Army Documentary (animation at 3:45)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ajkh8gtztIU 
1961 Nuclear Reactor Meltdown : The SL-1 Accident – Educational Documentary
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FAKcWM-yBkI
“Prompt Critical” – A Short Film Based on the SL-1 Incident – by James Lawrence Sicard (2013)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tPfXBqXJ_o4
Proving the Principle – A History of the Idaho National Engineering and Environmental Laboratory, 1949-1999 (Chapters 15 and 16 about SL-1 incident)
http://www4vip.inl.gov/publications/ (Chapter 15, page 11, illustration of the reactor)

The Nightingale by Kristin Hannah

In love we find out who we want to be; in war we find out who we are.

4.5 Stars – 4 for the overall book and 5 for the audiobook experience. A tear-jerker, several times over. Emotional historical fiction set in France, about two very different sisters and the often forgotten role of women during World War 2. The audiobook is nominated for a 2016 Audie Award in the Best Fiction and Best Female Narrator categories.

Men tell stories. Women get on with it. For us it was a shadow war. There were no parades for us when it was over, no medals or mentions in history books. We did what we had to during the war, and when it was over, we picked up the pieces and started our lives over.

The Nightingale wasn’t on my “To Read” list, but I received a copy of the audiobook from the Ford Audiobook Club and decided to give it a shot. It is a long one, clocking in at 17 hours and 26 minutes. I wasn’t interested in the book at first because I thought it would be more of a romance. The romance-related scenes did end up being my least favorite parts, but they were few and far between. They definitely aren’t the first thing I remember when thinking about this book. This book is really about women’s role in the war, the stories that are not always told. Kristin Hannah was inspired to write this book after stumbling upon the story of Andrée de Jongh, a 19-year-old Belgian woman and member of the Belgian Resistance. De Jongh organized the Comet Line, a network of people who helped shot-down Allied Soldiers make the journey over the Pyrenees to safety in Spain.

Perhaps that’s why I find myself looking backward. The past has a clarity I can no longer see in the present.

The book opens in 1995, with a dying elderly woman examining the contents of her trunk. An old passport photo of a young woman named Juliette Gervais causes memories from a distant past to rush back to her. Though we return to this woman several times throughout the story, her identity is not revealed until the end. We are transported back in time to 1939 and we meet a pair of sisters, Isabelle and Vianne, with two very different personalities and two very different reactions to the impending war. Eighteen-year-old Isabelle resents her father and sister for essentially abandoning her after their mother’s death. She is rebellious and stubborn and desperately wants to fight for France and join the resistance. Vianne wants to lay low and thinks everything will blow over. She remembers the effect World War I had on her father and she is not anxious for a repeat. She also has her daughter Sophie to protect.

1940, the Nazis invade France. Paris falls to the Germans on June 14. An armistice agreement is signed on June 22, leaving large parts of France to the Germans. Vianne remains in her quiet, countryside home with her daughter and her husband is sent off to war. Isabelle is one of the thousands who flee Paris and after a long, dangerous journey she finds safety with Vianne. Soon after, a Nazi soldier is billeted to Vianne’s home. Unable to sit still any longer or keep her opinions to herself, Isabelle secretly runs off to join the resistance. As the Nazis gradually creep into their lives, both sisters are confronted with moral dilemmas that have no easy answers. Even the best choice at the time can have terrible consequences. Food and money quickly run out and as the tough choices mount, Vianne finds bravery she didn’t know she had. I felt so conflicted and sympathetic for all the characters. [spoiler]Poor Vianne becomes somewhat of an outcast in her community because of her uneasy “friendship” with Captain Beck, a complicated man. I could totally understand her neighbors suspicions too. Everyone was just doing the best they could to survive.[/spoiler]

I know that grief, like regret, settles into our DNA and remains forever a part of us.

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I am hesitant to call The Nightingale light, because terrible, heart-wrenching things happen. Just a warning for expectations sake, since it was being compared negatively against All the Light We Cannot See; it is slightly closer to Nicholas Sparks than Anthony Doerr! I did think back to AtLWCS in the scenes where people were fleeing from Paris as German bombers fly overhead and the parts about the French resistance, but that is where the overlap ends.

List of events that completely destroyed me: [spoiler]Vianne/Rachel/the list, Sophie!, Ari left with Vianne, Isabelle and Vianne’s father’s sacrifice, the conclusion to Beck’s search, billeted soldier #2, Vianne’s husband difficult return, Daniel being picked up.[/spoiler]. The end is perfect!

What sacrifice would you make for your family or for future generations? What choices can you live with? I love books that let me get to know different people and make me understand their actions, whether they would be the actions I would take or not. It really made me look at myself and think about how I would react to certain situations. It is impossible to predict! I love Isabelle’s spirit, but I know I would be more of a Vianne. The Nightingale was one of those books that really surprised me and I am glad I got the chance to listen to it! I think the audiobook really enhanced the experience for me.

“Wounds heal. Love lasts. We remain.”